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today

today is birthday

it lonely

people celebrate thing I never had

many say autistic not care this things

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some don’t

I care

it matter because never have

because something special to other people but I not know why

how can understand something never have if not explain

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very few remember birthday

few that remember be nice not upset talk about too much

it just another day

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other day was four years since have stroke

four year ago was in hospital

if not covid I be hospital now

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everything hard

I alone

I not understood

I sad and tired

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all want is see my love

be in arms again

sleep next to

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nothing feel safe

autism, communication, Disability

Don’t ask how I am

if ask me how I am you going get same answer. I bad. I going be bad long time. I am alone and scare. I no care long time. My love in hospital and not know when see again. I not able get out bed without hurt me. I not able feed me. I all day in bed. I scare not able get pet food. I not able see doctor. I not able call anyone. I not be okay long time. I not communicate people I don’t know. Get worse everyday. I need communication device not getting funded. I need support worker not getting sent. I need doctor. I need help not happening. I am bad. I am isolated. I can’t take care myself and no one understand. I scare going slowly die alone and never see my love again. no I can’t go hospital. No don’t call police. That make worse and very triggering.