autism, communication

Stop and Listen

Stop and Listen.

people say nonverbal autistic not communicate.
Do I not exist?
I am here.
Will you hear me?
I think you not want hear me.
You not like be challenge your limited beliefs.
communication for me is slow.
I speak my ways.
I not like words.
You only listen speak mouth words.
There more ways to talk.
Stop being rude.
Stop yelling what you not understand.
I speak for me.
you try say words for me then be mad tell you not speak for me.
who the rude one here?
not the autistic people.
You who think know everything but not listen.
I am here.
I am tired of you.

Social

today

today is birthday

it lonely

people celebrate thing I never had

many say autistic not care this things

.

some don’t

I care

it matter because never have

because something special to other people but I not know why

how can understand something never have if not explain

.

very few remember birthday

few that remember be nice not upset talk about too much

it just another day

.

other day was four years since have stroke

four year ago was in hospital

if not covid I be hospital now

.

everything hard

I alone

I not understood

I sad and tired

.

all want is see my love

be in arms again

sleep next to

.

nothing feel safe

autism, Social

smile

smile
I hate told smile
I don’t show feelings same neurotypical person
my happy look different to you
I happy stim not showing on face
don’t ask why I not smiling
it makes me upset
I don’t need be smiling to be happy
I happy hand fly moving
my body show happy not face
don’t tell me smile don’t ask me why not smile
I be happy my way

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