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I am autistic but I’m not part autistic community.
my voice drowned by other autistic say autism good we smart we understand even not speaking we always communicating.
but I not smart I don’t understand I cannot do amazing things.
I can’t work I can’t do anything without help I need care all time day and night.
I say not understand I be ignore. I left out for the louder voices. Smarter. Can work. Do great things.
I need long times understanding I long long time learn anything. I not be valuable to community society I just exist.
having intellectual disability I repeated put aside.
I tired trying I tired not friendship I tired be alone.
I tired be outside not belong anywhere.
where can I belong when nobody want?