autism, communication

Stop and Listen

Stop and Listen.

people say nonverbal autistic not communicate.
Do I not exist?
I am here.
Will you hear me?
I think you not want hear me.
You not like be challenge your limited beliefs.
communication for me is slow.
I speak my ways.
I not like words.
You only listen speak mouth words.
There more ways to talk.
Stop being rude.
Stop yelling what you not understand.
I speak for me.
you try say words for me then be mad tell you not speak for me.
who the rude one here?
not the autistic people.
You who think know everything but not listen.
I am here.
I am tired of you.

Disability, Social

hi. I be quiet long time.

life very hard. I not ok not get what need.

feel abandon by people say help leave when too hard.

I tired be see a project. I person I have feeling and want and not for make you look better.

I’m not happy. I very mad the world. I get left to die. People help little then give up.

I left struggle alone.

I alive for now. It hard.

Social

today

today is birthday

it lonely

people celebrate thing I never had

many say autistic not care this things

.

some don’t

I care

it matter because never have

because something special to other people but I not know why

how can understand something never have if not explain

.

very few remember birthday

few that remember be nice not upset talk about too much

it just another day

.

other day was four years since have stroke

four year ago was in hospital

if not covid I be hospital now

.

everything hard

I alone

I not understood

I sad and tired

.

all want is see my love

be in arms again

sleep next to

.

nothing feel safe

communication, Disability

Communication Device

I have a new communication device. 
it is red. 
it helps me say what’s in my head. 

I lived so long. 
I felt dead. 
nobody knew what I said. 

I’m not trapped. 
inside my mind. 
I can yell or be kind. 

the world has opened. 
I am free. 
my pictures words for you to see. 

stories blogs texts.
what I feel.
the world can know I am real.