autism, communication

Stop and Listen

Stop and Listen.

people say nonverbal autistic not communicate.
Do I not exist?
I am here.
Will you hear me?
I think you not want hear me.
You not like be challenge your limited beliefs.
communication for me is slow.
I speak my ways.
I not like words.
You only listen speak mouth words.
There more ways to talk.
Stop being rude.
Stop yelling what you not understand.
I speak for me.
you try say words for me then be mad tell you not speak for me.
who the rude one here?
not the autistic people.
You who think know everything but not listen.
I am here.
I am tired of you.

Disability, Social

hi. I be quiet long time.

life very hard. I not ok not get what need.

feel abandon by people say help leave when too hard.

I tired be see a project. I person I have feeling and want and not for make you look better.

I’m not happy. I very mad the world. I get left to die. People help little then give up.

I left struggle alone.

I alive for now. It hard.

Social

today

today is birthday

it lonely

people celebrate thing I never had

many say autistic not care this things

.

some don’t

I care

it matter because never have

because something special to other people but I not know why

how can understand something never have if not explain

.

very few remember birthday

few that remember be nice not upset talk about too much

it just another day

.

other day was four years since have stroke

four year ago was in hospital

if not covid I be hospital now

.

everything hard

I alone

I not understood

I sad and tired

.

all want is see my love

be in arms again

sleep next to

.

nothing feel safe

Disability

Keep Going

I don’t know what to say. It is hard. My life has changed in big ways. I can’t do many things I used to. I try not to sleep. I don’t know I will wake up. I want to live.
I have dreams. I have goals. I am a person.
I don’t like be inside. I don’t like be in bed not moving pain. This not the life I want but it the life I have now and it still worth more.
I have stories to tell. I want world to know world to see.
I don’t want be another number lost and forgotten.
everyday I am calling from my heart see me hear me don’t let me die don’t let me die please please don’t let me die.
I want to see my loves. I hold hope. even if others can’t.
I am here. I won’t go without a fight. I will leave things on fire just like I have been all my life.

if you still here even if you can’t believe know this. I think you are extraordinary amazing. You matter you are worth the world. I hold hope in me for me for you for everyone. I will carry in me the beauty. You are loved. You are important. You are valuable.

keep going a second a minute a day. Keep going.

Jay

Written with Unity 144

Disability

Different Not Less

I been have difficult time. I worry about how hard everything for people trying help me. I know not easy everything happening with me and need big help. It been very hard and scary and I am very scare be leave alone again. I don’t want to die. I know alone again I will die.
I’m not only one like this. This happening to me happening to many everywhere.
I beg you this. Open eyes. See truth. Notice what been tried to hide. Value the disabled. Value those like me. Help. Don’t leave us isolated and alone. We have worth we matter. Together we are strong. unite. Stand with me. For me. For them. For all of us. Build a better future.
we are worthy of living. Let us live. Let us show you the beauty in our lives. We are beautiful. All of us. Open your heart to it and see the wonders of our worlds.
different not less

Written with Unity 144