yesterday I was at archery and someone was talking about autism. They said autistic show no emotion. This is wrong and makes me mad. I’m autistic. I show emotions.
I show in my body. I move and scream and flap and more.
then they say I’m not like that kid that boy don’t smile and you do. That also makes me mad. I am like them.
I am older and been made to pretend I normal like neurotypical person. I’m not.
What smile means for me is different to what smile means for neurotypical.
Smile doesn’t mean happy for me. Face expression is different for me. I don’t like smile or laughing because people think I’m being happy.
One day when I was child I break ankle and I laughing and laughing. People think I’m OK because I’m laughing but I not okay.
I didn’t understand how emotion works I still don’t understand emotions but I was forced to show things I don’t feel or understand and then I look like I’m happy or okay when everything maybe is terrible and leaving me suffering.
I’m different to the kid because I been made do things that hurt me for everyone neurotypical be more comfortable but I’m not comfortable.
I’m angry and hurting and makes people think they know me and they don’t.
I’m older and had different life but I know autism and I can say autism is like this so listen.
Just because older don’t mean different.
How many adults you know that same as kids?
If I see kid and say but you not like them you can drive is it right to you?
Don’t treat autism different just because ages different. We know we understand we can help.