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today

today is birthday

it lonely

people celebrate thing I never had

many say autistic not care this things

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some don’t

I care

it matter because never have

because something special to other people but I not know why

how can understand something never have if not explain

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very few remember birthday

few that remember be nice not upset talk about too much

it just another day

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other day was four years since have stroke

four year ago was in hospital

if not covid I be hospital now

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everything hard

I alone

I not understood

I sad and tired

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all want is see my love

be in arms again

sleep next to

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nothing feel safe

communication, Disability

Communication Device

I have a new communication device. 
it is red. 
it helps me say what’s in my head. 

I lived so long. 
I felt dead. 
nobody knew what I said. 

I’m not trapped. 
inside my mind. 
I can yell or be kind. 

the world has opened. 
I am free. 
my pictures words for you to see. 

stories blogs texts.
what I feel.
the world can know I am real.

Disability

Different Not Less

I been have difficult time. I worry about how hard everything for people trying help me. I know not easy everything happening with me and need big help. It been very hard and scary and I am very scare be leave alone again. I don’t want to die. I know alone again I will die.
I’m not only one like this. This happening to me happening to many everywhere.
I beg you this. Open eyes. See truth. Notice what been tried to hide. Value the disabled. Value those like me. Help. Don’t leave us isolated and alone. We have worth we matter. Together we are strong. unite. Stand with me. For me. For them. For all of us. Build a better future.
we are worthy of living. Let us live. Let us show you the beauty in our lives. We are beautiful. All of us. Open your heart to it and see the wonders of our worlds.
different not less

Written with Unity 144

autism, communication, Disability

Don’t ask how I am

if ask me how I am you going get same answer. I bad. I going be bad long time. I am alone and scare. I no care long time. My love in hospital and not know when see again. I not able get out bed without hurt me. I not able feed me. I all day in bed. I scare not able get pet food. I not able see doctor. I not able call anyone. I not be okay long time. I not communicate people I don’t know. Get worse everyday. I need communication device not getting funded. I need support worker not getting sent. I need doctor. I need help not happening. I am bad. I am isolated. I can’t take care myself and no one understand. I scare going slowly die alone and never see my love again. no I can’t go hospital. No don’t call police. That make worse and very triggering.