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today

today is birthday

it lonely

people celebrate thing I never had

many say autistic not care this things

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some don’t

I care

it matter because never have

because something special to other people but I not know why

how can understand something never have if not explain

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very few remember birthday

few that remember be nice not upset talk about too much

it just another day

.

other day was four years since have stroke

four year ago was in hospital

if not covid I be hospital now

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everything hard

I alone

I not understood

I sad and tired

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all want is see my love

be in arms again

sleep next to

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nothing feel safe

Disability

Different Not Less

I been have difficult time. I worry about how hard everything for people trying help me. I know not easy everything happening with me and need big help. It been very hard and scary and I am very scare be leave alone again. I don’t want to die. I know alone again I will die.
I’m not only one like this. This happening to me happening to many everywhere.
I beg you this. Open eyes. See truth. Notice what been tried to hide. Value the disabled. Value those like me. Help. Don’t leave us isolated and alone. We have worth we matter. Together we are strong. unite. Stand with me. For me. For them. For all of us. Build a better future.
we are worthy of living. Let us live. Let us show you the beauty in our lives. We are beautiful. All of us. Open your heart to it and see the wonders of our worlds.
different not less

Written with Unity 144

autism, communication, Disability

I worth

I not support puzzle piece not for me
I not break even with disability
I not here teach lesson
I not make like this because bad
my struggle not yours

I person whole complete
my life have meaning
I deserve existence
I right be safe eat drink live communicate choice be include
I have right even not speak not read not write not work

you not see worthy
you not see give society
I worth you see or not
I not smart your way I smart my way

you see complicate I see simple
I see beautiful little thing
soft cat fur
smile dog face
light dance raindrop
colour sky sunset

you fast I slow
stop look
see feel listen
world beautiful make art all alone

I not break not piece
I not project
I not inspire
I not bad disability not bad

I not want you cure
I not want you pity
I me I me
I me scream I me rock I me pain meltdown stim routine
I me need help or not

my society community
help everyone
why separate

I not child
don’t tell good not scream
don’t tell good smile
I allow be mad
I allow say thing wrong

I exist
I deserve equal
I deserve access world

autism, communication, Disability

Community

I am autistic but I’m not part autistic community.
my voice drowned by other autistic say autism good we smart we understand even not speaking we always communicating.
but I not smart I don’t understand I cannot do amazing things.
I can’t work I can’t do anything without help I need care all time day and night.
I say not understand I be ignore. I left out for the louder voices. Smarter. Can work. Do great things.
I need long times understanding I long long time learn anything. I not be valuable to community society I just exist.
having intellectual disability I repeated put aside.
I tired trying I tired not friendship I tired be alone.
I tired be outside not belong anywhere.
where can I belong when nobody want?