autism, communication, Disability, Social

Understanding

JaysWorld

hello thank you comment my write yesterday
welcome new people
many nice support
something some misunderstand
I not think autism bad I neurodiversity positive
communicate my words hard understand AAC different language carer try translate not easy
many not understand I say
I be tell is smart I say no very hard write long time say help find word AAC not understand people
people say presumption of competence very big word I say listen I not do good people think understand think can do leave me isolate struggle make feel alone
presumption of competence good many not me
I struggle I not get help need not everyone same
I proud autistic I proud disability I proud different
I still struggle still need many help still need listen to
I say I can’t is truth you make will hurt me make worse
I know not smart I know different still not bad be me
people online see write words not see how do hard is help offline try understand try translate
language hard write is tired

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autism, communication, Disability

Community

JaysWorld

I am autistic but I’m not part autistic community.
my voice drowned by other autistic say autism good we smart we understand even not speaking we always communicating.
but I not smart I don’t understand I cannot do amazing things.
I can’t work I can’t do anything without help I need care all time day and night.
I say not understand I be ignore. I left out for the louder voices. Smarter. Can work. Do great things.
I need long times understanding I long long time learn anything. I not be valuable to community society I just exist.
having intellectual disability I repeated put aside.
I tired trying I tired not friendship I tired be alone.
I tired be outside not belong anywhere.
where can I belong when nobody want?

autism, communication, Disability, Social

I am alone

JaysWorld

I alone
this world not made for me
I not fit anywhere
I try so hard
I use words I not understand
nobody understand me
it not my language
I am watching from the outside
people say we welcome you
I still feel lost alien
nowhere I can be all of me
I not smart everyone think I understand I don’t
I am alone
this world not for me
I tired I lonely
friend so hard make
I can’t fight anymore
it breaks me
I am alone

autism

Extra Post

JaysWorld

People make me mad lots.

I don’t be online for be argue.

I say my life.

Not first time I online but bully so much I go.

I not young. I don’t patient for people be rude.

My blog my space.

Is hard try again. You don’t know the abuse. You don’t know the death threaten. You don’t know what I go through.

I have lots help. I speak my life.

Everywhere feel not safe. Everywhere feel not acceptance be me.

Everything a fight in world everyone want dead.

I sick. I tired. Leave me say my life.

I still have therapist try make do ABA. It still make me feelings bad.

No ABA is good not any not new ABA all is hurting.