I alone
this world not made for me
I not fit anywhere
I try so hard
I use words I not understand
nobody understand me
it not my language
I am watching from the outside
people say we welcome you
I still feel lost alien
nowhere I can be all of me
I not smart everyone think I understand I don’t
I am alone
this world not for me
I tired I lonely
friend so hard make
I can’t fight anymore
it breaks me
I am alone
Category: Disability
about communication
sometimes I see posts asking about AAC.
I don’t like how many want proving can use communication device before giving a device. It don’t make understanding to me.
No one has to prove they can use their voice before they use it.
I grow up stuck inside myself not able to communicate. When I twenty I given a computer to communicate with but it didn’t help.
I never communicate before I didn’t understand words I needed to learn and understand and only picture understood.
I tried many devices and now found best one for me. I not be able if says prove using before give.
give AAC fastest can and teach to use. Nobody learn talk in silence nobody learn AAC without help.
Use to teach and help understand what means. All life I speaking all life only caring what tell voice. I not going voice.
Voice not only way voice not more important. Other ways speaking if you listen.
don’t wait get AAC as early you can.
Archery
I learn use this still. Be slow learn but want talk.
about archery
I love archery. I have fun do archery.
Long time be tell not can do archery. I tell d I want do archery long time.
Be tell no can’t do. Tell I shake too much tell I not be strong hold bow. Tell I not safe do sport.
D say why not? I go try archery. Everybody nice help.
Archery fun. I very like it.
be same like everybody not say no be same do have fun learn good. Archery nice people.
I want do archery many more be better.
I can do other people say no wrong. Let try see maybe be good try fun.
bye
Communication
I have a fish. My fish is happy.
he can’t talk, he can’t say what he wants, but he still can communicate.
he swims around fast and goes up and down his tank.
he looks at you and shows he wants food.
my fish is saying a lot.
I have a dog, my dog can’t talk.
he moves his tail and shakes his body. He goes closer if he likes being touched. He goes down when he’s scared. He makes noises to communicate. My dog can’t use words but he is communicating all the time.
I have cats, they can’t speak. They run and jump and play. They make sounds and move their bodies. They rub and push you when they happy. They bite and scratch when they upset.
my cats don’t use words, my cats are communicating.
I have a lot of pets, they don’t speak but they are saying many things.
I am a person. I don’t speak. I say many things with my body and my sounds. I don’t use words but I am saying many many things.
you can listen to the pets, they don’t speak. You can listen to me, I don’t speak. We are all saying many things, they don’t need words to be said.
communicating is more, communicating has many many ways.
see our languages and you might see a whole new world.
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we had a new support worker today and it was hard. don’t like new things and people never know what go wrong and something always go wrong. was very frustrated with the Vantage Lite it’s going wrong lots.
I heard the support worker say a word I didn’t like to hear and had only heard online for many years. I was bothered hearing something I had hear for abusing me most my life. I don’t understand why people say bad things to hurt us disabled.
it was long day and scary. Had to try explain I don’t know feeling hungry have no interoception. Can’t feel hungry thirsty go toilet not know pain or sick until very bad. I’m expected to know but it doesn’t fit in my head. Feelings are strange to me I didn’t know people had feelings until I adult. Now hard understand get asked you hungry you thirsty you need toilet and I don’t know. I never understand those.
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