today is birthday
it lonely
people celebrate thing I never had
many say autistic not care this things
.
some don’t
I care
it matter because never have
because something special to other people but I not know why
how can understand something never have if not explain
.
very few remember birthday
few that remember be nice not upset talk about too much
it just another day
.
other day was four years since have stroke
four year ago was in hospital
if not covid I be hospital now
.
everything hard
I alone
I not understood
I sad and tired
.
all want is see my love
be in arms again
sleep next to
.
nothing feel safe
