Disability, Social


hello. I been upset about some things for a while and shutdown. Make me not any energy to do anything.
I not have friend offline and very lonely. I want know people but hard make friendship.
people say online thing like zoom make more accessible for them. It not for me. I not be include those things. I can’t understand many speaking and I not fast using communication device and sound communication device make bad. If not I can use device typing and time make message I not part the group.
too many thing make me not have friend and I upset about it. I don’t understand why people bad with me. I never be understand many thing. It shouldn’t be so hard accept person disabilities autistic non-binary queer trans and many more thing.
sometimes I meet person then never see or talk me again but never tell why. What I do so bad that never want know me?
I tired.
if want be friend talk me or come Facebook group or discord chat.
good night

autism, communication

Don’t tell me feeling

don’t tell me what I feel. I had someone tell me I am happy. I not be happy very long time. I not like be tell what I not. You not know what in my head. I not face expression like person think.

other day I get hurt bad. When people hurt be cry or something show face people know is hurting. I was hurt be laugh and laugh. I not do same people not know I bad can’t show face expression.

sometimes be ask how you feeling. I hate hate this question. I don’t know what feeling most time. When feeling something is big strong feel. I not know happy sad what is? I don’t understand. It hard I not even know what thirsty hungry feel like.

I know what things make body doing this different what people say feeling is. I feel flappy win archery. I feel rocking when not like someone.

I not like be ask feeling. I hate be tell what I feel. I is me only I know me and what feel.

communication, Disability

Not say smart

sometimes people see my communication device and how well I use it and get excited about it. I don’t like that.

it great be positive about my way communicating but it make me uncomfortable when so big reaction.

I get nervous and then talk little. And sometimes they look at what I’m writing on my screen. Don’t do that. I will stop talking. If you not my safe person I won’t use device if been watched.

my communication device is my voice. It is a part of me. Just like you don’t touch wheelchair you don’t touch device. There private things on my device. It’s made and edited just for me and how I like and understand best. No one have communication device same as my words. Be make how they like their one best. That how talk faster.

when people look my screen make me freeze. I can’t communicate anymore and then feeling trapped and make big meltdown.

also I don’t like be say so smart because using device and sometimes I fast. I don’t say you so smart because you can use mouth words. Don’t tell me anything of smart or dumb. It not good say. You don’t know how hard work take learn or how long. This fast for me because try many many then find right one me use. If this your only voice you learn and make fast too.

people value not in how intellect have. It not good this anyway. Not matter everyone valuable just be person alive. When say you smart take away how long and hard many working just be same. I’m not smart I work hard learning and many many meltdown frustrate when can’t understand what mean. A lot help need for stay alive. I not able anything no care help.

better tell about what did and how much work do not say so smart. Don’t do that make chest hurt.

good night



hello. I be ask what AAC I using. I wanted write this on it own so more can know about how I talk. I use many AAC. I most use this Accent 1400 with Unity 144. It have different picture symbols because I need different. I use sometimes with keyguard and sometimes mouth stick and sometimes switches. My disability need change all time. Early maybe I not can move hand. Late maybe tired not move anything.

sometimes I use this LAMP words for life. Sometimes I use sign language get write down for me. Sometimes I show things. Communicate is a lot different ways. I like Unity 144 most because work good for me but other person maybe like different communication device and different symbol. My communication device dedicated device with funding. But use some on iPad too.

it take time to learn where word is and what many picture word mean. Some is easy and some take long time with many many repeat and explain different way until understand.

it help when care use AAC too then learn where word is but also make AAC look ok like people use voice. It my language. Everyone need different like everyone have different voice. Hope be understand. Communicate important should be give everyone how they can.

See you later.

*You can learn more about Jays preferred AAC at this website: https://www.prentrom.com/prc_advantage/language-systems

A red computer looking device with a grid of pictures on it and a keyguard over the picture grid.
Jays Communication Device
autism, Disability


hello. I be try write more post while learn communication device words to talk.

I have people say me online I can’t be autistic because can use computer. I can’t be intellectual disability because write talk online use computer.

I have word for you who say this thing. Your word of the day is accessibility.

I have accessibility to use computer internet talk and more.

I can use communication device to be online and writing. I can accessibility with iPad cell phone have thing speak for me. I have help people explain way I understand so know what people meaning. This how know you been rude. Rude not the word I want say but if I say word I want say you be start saying not want listen because autistic all yelling when ask help for my child and I not want hear that again.

do you know how many people ever listen me? Not many. It take many yelling be hear then you say oh I not listen until you say thing calm. This mean nobody ever listen.

I autistic. I intellectual disability. You don’t have right to my medical document. I use thing with help from technology from people explain from accessibility. From accept all way I communicate and help to say thing my way.

stop tell me what I am. You not know my life from little thing internet.

I autistic not with autism. I is diagnose and I support self diagnose. Diagnose not easy stop be a stink Fart.

See you later.